虽然承认自己很傻，明明知道你不爱我，明明知道你离我很远，可还是想这样默默的爱你，这就是我的幸福吧。不忍心去打扰你，只希望你读到这段话时能有一点点被爱的幸福感觉。 

最近的事情越来越来越离谱了，神啊，你做的事情你自己不觉的可笑么？

也许在没有预料的地方，没有预料的时间遇到某人是最早就该准备好的，

也许当我疼过之后还能让别人来戳一戳自己的伤处， 告诉他们什么是受伤，是为了你的荣耀？

下周要去南戴河了，没有爱人，没有快乐，还是工作。

原来隐藏在这里，只是在作你的囚犯。

 

To what do I owe this gift my friend?
My life, my love, my soul?
I've been dancing with the devil way too long
And it's making me grow old..

 

Let's leave...oh let's get away

Get lost in time
Where there's no reason left to hide

 

What are you going to do with your gift dear child?
Give life, give love, give soul?

Divided is the one who dances

For the soul is so exposed

so exposed

 

有时不开心，有时开心，但总是过的越来越累。

明明已经不想继续现在这样的生活。

I am really lost this time, it's is so quick and painful. It made me start to think about all the ones that I know, and comes out with this answer: no one was like what I believed, no matter they had loved you or not. 

now I am feeling like this only one I believed had gone. so nothing need to hide, nothing need to search for.

never believe the thing that does not exist.